3.24.09

Today, not sooo exciting. Spent the night at J's which was nice, though. Lots of "I love yous" and he held my body next to mine which was very comforting. A few times I even thought I might still be alive. I arrived late last night and was on my usual v cocktail, of which I am taking more and more of just to numb the pain. Seeing him was nice but the novelty and excitement wore off as it always does. We had violent sex, then loving, violent sex and I have bruises on my hips where he squeezed so tight while he thrusted deeply into me. My fave part of being a woman is being able to be completely defiled and left whimpering in a soggy mess of my own cum.